For those who don’t know me very well… I am a person who loves to have control of things around me. I am somewhat of a perfectionist, I am very organized and love planning things and putting together events. These are all good characteristics.... until you become pregnant.

You don’t really get to do much other than watch what you eat, drink lots of water, and take your vitamins. Other than that you get to sit back and watch as God performs a miracle right in front of your eyes... and inside your belly! The miracle of pregnancy and babies is one that I love seeing. I am in awe at how a little baby forms and grows within a mother’s body.

I just have a hard time not knowing what is going on in there and knowing if the little life AI have inside me is okay. When you feel that baby move it makes things a little easier but not entirely. I love that feeling of the 1st little nudge from inside. But then some days you don’t feel the baby as much, reality is that you have been preoccupied and missed a lot of movements. I don’t want to miss any of those movements!

And then the day comes when you meet your baby face to face and emotions sweep over you like a title wave. That is the best thing in the world, to see your little ones face for the first time.

After going through one miracle and embarking on my 2nd… I cannot see how anyone in this world can look at a pregnant lady and not see the hand of God at work right before their eyes.

I hate not being in control but enjoy the miracle God is working on. Maybe this is a way that God shows me that ultimately He is in Control of EVERYTHING, of my entire life. This is His way of telling me it is okay, let go Amanda, I am here and I am with you.