I had been struggleing with a 21 year friendship and finally through a Sunday School lesson at church God spoke to me. I am sure He had been speaking and I not listening thinking I could be the one who fixed the relationship, as I have tried to do time and time again from an early age.
It was really hard letting go and handing over this relationship to God, but it had to be done... as I am slowly learning that God handles EVERYTHING in my life... and it seems to be easier if I just step back and let Him lead me. I struggled for several weeks with this, and I know I was letting God down through my struggles, but soon I gave in and gave i to God... I prayed and let Him take the reigns. At first I mourned the loss of a relationship, then I had joy in the relationship that strengthened... my relation ship with God, which led to other relationships becoming stronger.
So as time went on I still missed my friend and it was hard not picking up the phone and calling when things happened that I would normally call her about, like me becoming pregnant. But on the other hand I just had a feeling and it was Gods hand in my life leading me and comforting me. I never stopped praying for this friend and this relationship.
Lately at church in Sunday School we have been talking about God moments and how they just happen!
I have experienced a God moment today. My prayers have been answered and my friend came to me broken and wanting to fix a relationship gone bad. I didn't need to do the repais like I always thought, God did them and in doing so healed parts of my heart that I didn't realize were broken.
All I have to say is sometimes the hardest things in life turn out to be blessings!
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