Well today is Friday of my 1st week back at work. What a week it has been. Started off fabulous, the 1st 2 days were not bad at all. I did not leave on time those days but still I was back and hitting homeruns left and right! I had not forgotten much, only small things we all forget from time to time. The morning routine was running smoothly and Jason was being awesome…
Wednesday all this came crashing slowly around me. I get to work a little later because I had to fill up my gas tank… then off to work. We get this big project going and we have solved a HUGE problem (the day is turning around!) or not….. the problem is fixed but the co-worker who seems to stir up problems comes in and tries to make me and 2 other co-workers look Stupid in front of our big boss… then the same boss comes to my office and asks me a question which I try to answer but the same lady butts in like I am not here… then I research what said boss is wanting and find something I take it to her and low and behold same lady comes in behind me trying to butt in again… I FORGOT how she was… can you believe it I FORGOT how EVIL this lady can be.
So I am irritated the rest of the day but focus on my work and the clock. I leave on time… traffic is HORRIBLE (shocking I-65 bad….!!!) I get home and spend 30 mins with my family, give Savannah a bath and then go to bible study.
BIBLE STUDY WAS THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY. Tears were shed but in a good way. We started our new book and it is going to be an emotion field time but an awesome opening and growing together with each other!
I head home talking with Jen about diff Fears and worries we have and how it is hard letting go of our children but that it does get easier… meaning we find the positive like they are creating bonds with their grandparents like we had as children.
Once I get home it is after 10 I get ready for bed, talk with Jason and our night of no sleep starts, the bad day turns to a nightmare
Landon was breathing really deep... his sides and stomach were working really hard and going in and out where you could see it.... then he would have a coughing spell followed by a period where he acted like he was struggling to even get a breath and turning bright deep red (not blue Thank The Lord).... this would be followed by screaming and then fussy baby..... Leading back to the weird breathing deeply.....
This cycle lasted all night long and the spells where he could not get a breath got longer and the coughing spells got worse.... so I called the afterhours nurse and she listened to him and said I needed to bring him in ASAP.... so I called Jen and left her a crying msg on her machine, then Rachel at 3 in the morn (sorry girls, but thank you too) Rach gave me instruction and a phone number to Children’s. I left Jason to tend with Savannah who had not been asleep very much cause of Landon’s crying. So off Landon and I went...
So here I am 5 hours after the nurses call, $100 down for the ER visit, and was told that Landon still has bronchialitis, his oxygen level was good even though he had labored and whizzy breathing, he was hydrated enough to pass that test so they said that they would release him for care at home and he did not need to be admitted to the hospital... and now I just have to schedule a drs visit next week with his dr then watch for a few signs that would bring me back to the ER... oh yeah also the albuteral breathing treatment his dr prescribed him I was informed did not work, will not work, never gonna work by the ER dr unless later in life he ends up with asthmas. But luckily his ear infection is gone.
So there is nothing they can do for him said we were doing a good job and basically said good luck, come back if things worsen. They called him a happy wheezier meaning he was responding like normal, even though he is fussy that he is awake during the right times and all....
We are pretty upset about all this of course! Will be talking to his dr about everything next week.
Yesterday is a blur, I got to take a nap when Jason’s mom came up… much needed. Landon did much better last night, sleeping actually better than any time before… except that weird time when he was a week old and he slept for 8 hours that night!
Today I get to work and get started on some of my normal projects to have them taken away from me and given to someone else. I also had another of my jobs taken from me earlier this week. I don’t know what this means but I don’t like it. Now that I am back from maternity leave I am no longer “protected” so my boss and I will be having a talk. I just want to understand why and make sure I did not do anything wrong… so this not worrying thing right now is not working. I am trying to breath and focus on other stuff… it seems like after our bible study Wed night I have been under attack…
“My soul finds rest in God alone” Psalms 62:1
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